They say that time heals all wounds. It still hurts though. Days that mark something like a birthday tear at the wound more than others would. Penny, that is the type of day that you gather the special people around you that love you. People that will hold you if you want to cry and perhaps cry with you. People that will laugh at the little things that you remember about the person that would give you a smile. People that will know to be silent when silence is called for.
My thoughts go out to you. I know what it feels like.
Hugs
M