Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: obsession becoming overwhelming

by casio

yeah I ended terapy now but it doesn't really seem to be doing much for me you know so I did start seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist and stuffbut I ended up getting a woman therapist with long hair and I told her about it and you know she was very professional about itbut I just kept thinking about her hair so I told her and then I ended up get a new one which is a guy you know so that worked out butdid those type of people don't tell you anything that you're already know she said that I pretty much had to quit i cold turkey might not be not like look at her at all ever again and I I tried for a couple weeks but it just didn't work and I just kept having dreams about it I mean this is been going on with me since I was like 15 years old and I like 30 now but my social isolation has just kept getting worse and worse and worse over the last couple years because I had a couple of bad relationships that ended badly for various reasons most of them ending up with me being in jail at the end you're the first girl I went out with said that she was 18 when she was in and I end up going to jail for quite a long time because of herand the next girlfriend I had I had with hold out on me and give me all pissed and we would get into yelling matches and stuff and then you know that I know that girl I went out with wife cheated on me and stuff and it was really horrible and like I was just tired all the time having a girlfriend is better than theory and then in real life you know so I don't know why upset about it so much so get your eyes it's like I just can't get the hair thing out of my mind and you know masturbating only does so much oh and you can only buy so much hair on line most of it away after whileI end up having to have to throw away the hair after a while because it gets all you know not it up and no matter how after while washing it a whole bunch of times it just dies the head anymoreyou'rany more you'reyou know I just like completely drained myself physically and mentally with this hair thing its like I don't know but anyways nobody understand me ever so it doesn't matter goodbye